Life is...

[hawkeye]

NOTE: I just moved my story onto a new thread ill try to use to release stress. I did try to release stress once and that ended bad. Very very very very.......

Onto my crappy life! It all started in Kindergarten. I had two best friends. One became a bitch over time so I won't talk about her, and a guy that was somewhat nice to me and somehow, i understood him, unlike the other girls and some guys. We'd hang out as much as possible. We live next to each other, so iz no biggy. But we'd play video games and do random stuff all the time. Our teacher liked me so she never bothered me when we'd talk in class. Around first grade, it got weird. He suddenly stopped talking to me. I tried, but failed. Now jumping into the future, summer of 6th grade. At this point, I was hanging out with my neighbor and her friend which was somehow the guy's sister. We were hanging out with my best friend, and suddenly, she bursted out randomly in my face that the guy had a crush on me. At this point, the gears started turning and realized that he liked me from the start. She then suddenly yelled to me to not to say it to a soul: if i did, she'd be dead meat. Then, during winter of last year, me and the sis hung out again. She told me that he got dared to ask me out. She then told me to say NO. I promised, but he never did ask me out. Now it's this year and I'm in a class with him. By the day, he acts weirder and weirder around me. And actually, I'm starting to have a crush on HIM. What's freaking me out is the fact that the exact time last year, he was dared to ask me out. Valentine's Day is also coming up, so there is another thing. All i ask from you guys is this: what should I do about this Situation?? and what should i do about this problem?? HELP ME OUT! if you say something over the cbox, okee dokee! if you want to send me a pm, great! Any shape or form on this site, thanks! So please, SOS! but to those who know me in person... just on the site! the only ppl who know about the problem (everyone knows the Situation) is my best friend, and the sis with my neigbor only know half the story. Or majority. but not the last part! so....SOS!

[hawkeye]

Life is... punishable. So today, or wait, I'll start from the other day. My math/social studies teacher told us we were having a sub. This won't sound bad if you're with "sweathogs"(a phrase for idiots from a movie. Funny how I can say it in their faces and they can never understand... for a social studies class. She told us that if the sub wrote down a SINGLE NAME, that person would get detention. All the kids in social studies (including me) were like, "pfft. We'll be fiiiiiiine!!!" Ya..he he......no. Next day, we had a very nice young looking substitute that was very quiet. We were like angles (yay! I made a funny!... the neighbors next door think I'm crazy ) in my math class, so she was in a very content mood. That was before...IT....HAPPENED. (bumbuuuum!!) S.S looked fine at first, but it got bad. Sweathogs sit all around me, so it stinks for me. But it's never bad as this. Introducing dumb butt A. He thought It'd be normal to ask the sub this: "Can I leave?" *sub looks at clock* "Where can you leave? Class just started..." "Home." He was serious. Everyone bursted into laughing and he was looking around as if saying, "WTH happend?" Now, introducing Dumb butt B. He always chucks stuff around the room like a kid eats candy. He got caught chucking a large UCO (unidentified chucking objet) right after she turned the lights on from using the projector. Now back to dumb butt A again. He thought it would be nice to show the teacher how to plank on two-no three desks lined up. My psychotic teacher walked in and gave him the weirdest look. Now Dumber and Dumb*ss. They always physically kick each other, and I have to sit in front of them. Lucky me. Anyway, Dumber had to get sommething on Dumb*sses desk. Idk why, but Dumb*ss decided to stick his tongue out as Dumber reached for his thing. At the EXACT moment, sub looked over and squinted. "YOU SHOULDN'T BE LICKING EACH OTHER!" All heads whipped around and screamed with laughter. I whip around to see the idiots scream, "It's not what it looks like!!" But oh yes, it did. As we left for next period, I looked at sub's paper. The whole entire thing was covered in blue pen notes talking about all the events. Now, today, we all walked into our class like an execution is happening for all of us. Poor sweathogs were...sweating. Like hogs. Huh. Dumb butt B was called outside from my teacher. Everyone looked so nervous, knowing we would all be in trouble. Finally, she walks into the classroom and scolds us all. She only handed out one detention. That was to Dumb butt A. We look at her like, "What? No more?" Someone asks her and she says, "Oh, that wasn't the sub that wrote that detention down, that was (my psychotic teacher that walked in.)" We were lost. But she made us do an extra chapter of notes, with a set of questions. So life is definitely... punishable. But to those who r reading this, what do you think should've happend? Let me know anytime! Even if it's REALLY stupid! I am very fluent in stupidnesseseseses!!!..........k bye.

[hawkeye]

Life is... full of nervous breakdowns

Anyhooha, I am having one of the most suspensful days of my life, Christmas being the most suspenseful. Why must it be like this? Well I'll rant to you!!

Let us starteth back in time-eth-eth-eth(I'm very unfancy. Think of a caveman. Now think of a caveman with a bazooka, in a birthday hat. I picture this an awful lot...) Now let us see here...(BOOM! wait why boom? oooh I know!!) PEPSI!! January 12, 2012, Tis-eth a Saturday. I was taking a test that would change my life...maybe. It was none other than a Catholic High School Placement Test (HSPT) This would determine if I would go to the catholic school, or a public school. This test was optional for me, my parents knew I'd do fine wherever (I <3 my parents but it was very hard. Also, there were legacy kids (kids that had a close relative that went or is going will recieve a higher chance of makin it.) I wasn't a legacy kid, making me a low chance to going in. Turns out, lots of people took the test from my public school. In fact, as we drove up, everyone that was walking up the steps was from my school. (cue breakdown >.<) But as we finished, we were told we would get the results by tommorrow. (D-day!!! oopsie...V-day!!!) PEPSI!!! now we are here today as I rant-ith (cue the caveman bazooka party hat man) to you about this. But tis not over(eth??) I walked into cafeteria, and I see my friend, (maybe friend.) and she tells me she made it. Oh and another thing: none of my friends knew about it except my one guy-friend (everyone has a different gender friend!!) and my maybe friend (how she found out I took the test is a different story) So I freak out, knowing I should've got my letter, and I honestly forgot about the whole damn thing! So being my awkward self....I run into the bathroom crying. My eyes are puffy as I come out so my one guy friend looks at me with terror. He asked whats wrong and I whispered everything to him. He pleaded me to go to my public highschool with him, so he was majorly pissed at me for doing that. But he looked like he actually cared. But another problem is this: he asked me to let him tell someone that was staring at me wide-eyed, so I said fine. She yelped and said the highschool out loud. Everyone turned toward me. I thought they were gonna scream, ""WHAT?!" but thank god, they didn't. They were happy for me. They told me that I might just get it tommorrow. They cared and it warmed me up so much. Until SHE came. a lunch supervisor looked at me saying, "WHATS WRONG???" I said, "ooh pfft. Allergies." "UMM...I SHOULD PROBABLY TAKE (force) YOU TO THE NURSE!! YOU LOOK HORRIBLE!!" My friends glare at her for saying I look horrible, but she forces me to the nurse. I cry once again, and then she stopped. I told her I was just crying about something. She nodded but gave me a lecture on just telling her straight out. As we finish, my friends come at bad timing. I do a slicing motion on my neck but they ignore it. They start yelling at her saying I was just crying about something. Head low as I leave, she once again talks to me. As she walks off, all I think is this: I <3 my Friends. They stuck up for me, never knowing they would do that for me. So as this story (long long story) closes, here is advice: you can always trust true friends. True friends would do anything like this in my crappy life. For example, I have you ppl right...? Anyhoo, <3 to all, (but none FOR YOU!!!!...jk!) TO ALL and HAPPY D-DAY!!....wait....HAPPY V-DAY!!! <('.'<) (^'.'^) (>'.')>

[hawkeye]

Life is...well, life-changing.
ok, I feel like if i don't write it it'll be stuck in my head, but I'm tired, so I'll make it short for all. I got results in...aaaaaannnnnd.....I didn't make it. Ah, well. I think the whole time The Lord meant for me to go with my friends to public. Funniest thing though, I was at shool (i'm pronouncing things differently now) and one friend walks over and says, "Hey Bob!(thaz not ma real name, but I'm not sharing it.) How'd you do on the test??" I look at them and said, "I didn't make it." Now the funny thing with him is that we were in a class together, and I'd help him with homework and did projects together, so we became great friends. But he thinks I'm einstein smart. I'm really not, I just see things in textbooks that everyone else is oblivious to. And so once I said I didn't make it, he was waiting for me to say "just kidding!" In fact, he says this: "...hahaha! No, really." He was so serious. "I-I'm not kidding! I didn't make it!" He blushes with embarrasment and he quickly says: "oh well...At least you have (our next shool name) and us!" He quickly makes a break for it and runs away on his tiny legs. So, to those who actually care, I didn't make it. Yup. Of course, I was mad at first, (who wouldn't be??) but I realized that place wasn't cracked up to be. So unless one of you people reading this is taking an HSPT, I have wisdom!!! (1$ a customer...lol jk) First, if you want to go to a different school, think hard so you actually have time to study (I had a month) and, if your oh-so-extremely-awesome-I-am-using-a-lot-of-dashes-study plan doesn't work, well...SUCKS FO YOU!! No I didn't mean that at all...that was my alter ego, Shavalavadingadonga. If you don't make it, that's ok! You are human, not a cyborg that is PERFECT (seriously, I know people like that...I've been trying to find their "off" button ever since) You are you! Hear....you roar??? Also, another morale no one gives a crap about, don't be oblivious with textbooks. If you are, you'll end up like my friend who thinks I'm a master mind-so don't miss the things in life-HOLY COW!!! IMMA PHILOSOPHER!!! Ooohhh Shavalavadingadonga!!! Sorry, I'm really hyped today... I knew i shouldn't have drunk three glasses of ice tea and 5 cups of soda! Soooooooooooooo......... k bye.

[hawkeye]

Life is...trustworthy

Sometimes, I trust my friends. Like when they ask to borrow something and they promise to give it back. But sometimes, I just don't. This is probably because a year ago, one of my best friends had a birthday party. I wasn't invited. Before you start thinking, "Uck, not like the world revolves around you!" No one told me about it. Not a single person. Or my own best friend I've known since 1st grade. But I figured it out. One night, I was with my best best friend and a good friend. We were talking and I knew the one with the party had a birthday coming up, because we made a poster for her. So we were talking, and I asked my best best friend what she was doing tommorrow. She kind of looked at my good friend as if, SOS. I can read her majority of the time. Honestly, she is like a book that can be read over and over. So when I saw that, I had my clue #1. She said in a nonchalant way, saying, "oh, I have to go to my aunt's birthday thing. She lives by (the best friend with party)." That weirded me out, considering I didn't even ASK for the location. Clue #2. Then, my good friend started doing weird dances (she does cartwheels in the hallway. Little on the hyper-side.) and started saying in excitement, "I'm going to my neighbors paaaarty!!" #3. Not much of a clue at first, then I felt like I got hit by a bunch of bricks; my best friend with the party (calling her M because I cant say that the whole time!!) had her birthday the next day. Somehow, they both had birthdays to go to. As we got home, I cried my brains out. I'm a crybaby in real life in case you haven't noticed already. The next day, I got a text from M. She sent me a text saying,"(a girl I know) cant come." I was REALLY confused. Clue #4. I asked her in text, thinking she better spit it out, but she said, "oops." The text wasn't supposed to go to me. I thought they just wanted to mess with my head at first. I pretty much interrogated her, until she said,"oh, just religous education." I felt a LITTLE better. Later that day, I went with my bro to see a movie, and as we walked out, I could've sworn I saw a group of friends hanging outside the theatre. #5. I didn't know it was really the party group until I found the truth. Monday, I was in shool. I am a violist, so I'm in orchestra (if you don't know what a viola is...google it. I don't know why you wouldn't know about it.) and M and my best best (A) were talking. Now, the strange thing others find...well...strange is how I can appear right next to them. I honestly think half of my grade thinks I'm a witch or a ghost BECAUSE I can do that. When I was little, I was quiet, so I kind of learned how to sneak away or pop beside someone.(and BOY WAS IT FUN!! but I was behind A and M talking. At first, they talked about saturday, party day. I figured that was usual, considering it was their RE event. Then, they talked about the movies. How A was acting weird in front of M's mom. Then they talked about everything about the party. I was thinking, "heh heh. RE right??" NO. got worse. A said the word "party" to M. I Everything clicked into place. I figured out God was the whole time tapping me on the shoulder. Now, he hit with a boulder the size of the Grand Canyon.Now, this isn't even CONSIDERED a clue. this is like, giving a hyper-active kind of person with a monster energy drink (Lmao I'll tell that story some other thyme...what?) then saying, are you hyper yet?? I was so pissed, I tried to act like a how you say, b-i-t-c-h. I gave them a huge angry look and said, "Waaaait...What party!?!?!" I know I was supposed to be mad, but MAN, their faces. Both their jaws dropped at the same time, then it got quiet. Immediately, I say, "Umm...THAT is confusing." A escapes out of it saying, "uhhh...yeah it is." She zipped to her seat in seconds. M just bowed her head down and didn't say anything. I stormed off, mad at my orchestra teacher telling us to, "GET TO YOUR SEATSS!!" I wish I could've said, "CAN IT WAITT?!?" but the whole class period, I checked their shameful faces for any sign. Their eyes were blank. they whispered to each other then when I look over, they would see and look away. After class, I stormed right out. I didn't want to give a s*it to those f**kin liars!! (sorry...little fired up. *blushes*) I hear foosteps behind me as my best friend, A, runs after me, screaming my name, "HAWK!!! WAIT UP!!" ( my real name isn't hawk, but I'll let that be considered my name.) I finally let everything come out of me and scream at her. She bowed her head, saying, "Hawk. I am so so so sorry. I can explai-" "EXPLAIN WHAT?! That you lied to you best, best friend?!? Or the fact you didn't tell me?!?" She let flood out of her. One goody girl came up to me (she's that girl that's like Dr.Jekkle and Mr. Hyde. When she's around teachers or who look weak, she looks like a cute little girl. When people that actually stood up to her, *acts like a demonous snake.*) and she said, "what's wrong?" A told her and she clung onto me until my next class. I hated her from the get-go. Aren't I nice?? But A told me. She told about her knowledge before the party. How she was asked not to tell me or anyone else, because M felt bad that she was only allowed to invite 7 people (HA!). I felt a little better. But, I wanted revenge. Only A and M knew I knew about it. So I had some fun. I acted my best around my good friend (B) and said things like, "Oh, how was your neighbors party??" "Did you have fun with M." She choked on her bite of food and looked at me saying, "w-why M?(!)?" "Well, I heard she had a party and YOU didn't tell me about it." I'm sorry, please don't make a first impression of me. I'm not a total bitch. Only when crap like this happens. She stopped and squeaked, "Sorry." I did this with a few others until I asked for everything and why. They all said the same thing, but I was still mad. Soooo...MORALE TIME!!! If you do something like this, tell them. Sure, they'll be pissed, but not like me in the story! And friends are true-blue to each other. No matter what. If any of you are interested, you can know that me, M, A, B, and all the others are still tight. In fact, tighter. Oh, and Hyde/Jekkel girl is still a bitch. but we learned from our mistakes (I think.....:/) But again, tell the truth. Or else they'll end up like me: Bit once, shyed twice. If you don't know the term then...MY GAWD YOU NEED TO READ A THING IN THE LIBRARY!!! Iz spelled, buuk!! So while you fnid taht buuk, ill tkae spelilng clsases! But please, hear my cry and TELL THE TRUTH!! even if you took someone's apple, or...murdered someone (actually...I hope you didn't murder anybody...)and sorry anybody that gives a crap! I'm kind of crazed after typing this story. But i feel better that someone can feel my pain. anyway................BYE!!!!

[hawkeye]

Life is... full of thin deals.

Hi. How are you. Good. Sorry I am talking like this. I am VERY pissed. I think if I make any other punctuation (? or !) I will break loose and cause hell to your brains. Ok let me explain: H-U-N-G-E-R G-A-M-E-S is now a problem. My friends and I were talking, and we were thinking about going to one of the first showings of the Hunger Games. A week ago, I was able to get a late time on friday. I told my friends to get this one. I have about 3 friends in my grade that are going to it. I told them to get the tickets last weekend. Now today, I ask one of my friends if she got the ticket and................................................................ it turns out, she's going somewhere for Spring Break. So she asks me something I feel I would die if she said it again: "oh, can you cancel your ticket, then we could go two weeks later?" I ordered it online so I can't. I looked at her, obviously mad saying, "No. I can't get rid of the ticket! Didn't you put two and two together BEFORE-hand?" "......" she didn't say anything else. I'm really mad because we were planning this event since like, NOVEMBER. This is Febuary. 3-4 months later she breaks the news. She said the same thing to my guy-friend and he was looking at her like, "WTF?!" He finally answered and said, "ok...I guess." So now, because I can't cancel it, I told one of my friends if she can go. She doesn't know a thing about the incident. Neither does my dim friend. So, morale time. Guys, listen well and listen good. wait... maybe two! Ok, I'm lettung off steam so I feel little better. Anyway, don't blow off your friends!! They may attempt to stab at your plea, (what I did, because nobody screws with me and my love of hunger games...like Shades with band and whitedragon with cheeseburgers!) or just leave you and don't talk to you anymore. Also, plan ahead. I don't do this, so before it's too late, plan ahead so you don't act like my dim friend. Wow. This may be my shortest post on the journal....brava??? So yeah....if you have a related story to being blown off (being blown of by the wind doesn't count ) lemme know! sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.......bi

[hawkeye]

Life is... a part of growing up



[WARNING!~ contains language...and it's english. Also few colorful words]

Ugh....my best friend, A, is killing me. Apparently, she was going out with this guy I know. Then, they broke up. Her shortest dating thing was with this psycho guy it only lasted one day, 24 hours. She's been going out with guys since 4th grade. And what kills me is that it seems everyone has to have a boyfriend. My poor friend A thinks boyfriends are everything. Now, I hate to say it, but it's either every girl in my grade are sluts, or I am a "forever alone". Probably the first one. But I just feel for them! Even for the sluts! They feel boyfriends are everything. I wish I can scream to them, "IT'S NOT!!" I just feel so pissed right now. Practically most of my good friends act like sluts! My ex-best friend dresses like...well, it looks like 80% of her body isn't covered at all!! One of my friends had like, 8 boyfriends already!!! Im in frickin Middle School!! Who would already have 8 boyfriends! And whenever one of my friends date, they like, make out on the first date! Aie.... *sigh* Morale time.
To all the girls out there: DON'T DEPEND ON BOYFRIENDS!!! For my sake, have dignity. If you want to look pretty, do it for yourself. Because if you do it for your crush, you will also do it for that creepy guy at Walmart. For all the guys out there: I know you aren't doing this to the girls on purpose (hope not) but one thing: Don't go out to go out. It won't make you perfect to have a girlfriend. Just go out with those you really care for. My friend, A, would go out with whoever asks. That isn't good. Because someday, I know a creepy guy would ask her out and her, in her giddyness, would be yeah, sure. And then she would find there is no candy in that white van. I don't want it to happen, don't get me wrong, but...ugh. I'm ranting. Ok, I'll be sure to find a way to...chill I guess. Ugh....k................peace out boyscout -.-

[hawkeye]

Life is... full of queen bees, wannabes, and REAL people

Çäðàâñòâóéòå äðóçüÿ! Ýòî "Õîê"! (Hello friends! It's Hawk!) Lol I have been getting into different languages lately...this one is Russian. But onto my dilemma. Ok, so I've been having problems with my friends lately... A (look at earlier posts) and I went to catch a flick at the movies. The whole time she texted, she didn't pay for her ticket, (had to pay $20) and she pretty much either talked about this guy she was flirting with or....actually that was it. My friend M is trying to be queen bee. EVERYTHING has to go her way =_=. Also, R is nice, but I don't know...something fishy is in the air. Oh and a girl, B, butts in the way whenever I try to talk. Another girl, E, she thinks she's always right. I say one thing then she either calls me a "blonde" or say something about white people. One day actually, she said something about white people, then I fired off at her race. It went on until a lady came by to stop screaming. But yeah...it seems all friends are jerks...except a few. This one girl, K, is in a way, a marshmallow. Yet she watches the human centipede and all types of horror movies. Then, there is P. She is new at school, but very nice. She has a good humor and all that stuff that is happiful. These two (and my guy friend F) are lifesavers. Seriously! Without them (and another certain person that certainly knows who certainly is ) I would want to move to Sweden and live with sheep by the name of Freida. This stuff is very important right now because I'm doing something for my birthday, (April 6, 11:57 pm...lol) and I want REAL people to hang out with...OH OH! MORALE TIIIIIIIIIIIME!!!!! ok, guys, take a quick scan of you. Now turn around because there is a ghost behind u!!!!! lol jkjk...i think......but people, think! Do you attempt to act like any of the above? A a total texter, M a queen bee wannabee, B a butt-in, E a loud mouth? I know you guys are amazing people (REAL PEOPLE) but think through your life: any bitchy friends?? If so, drop them before its too late! you don't deserve bitchy friends!!...poop gtg.....K..................byte

[hawkeye]

Life is...do u kno what?? life is REALLY f***ed up rite now

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MY LIFE....SUCKS!!!
wooo....woo.........wooooo.......*sigh* oooook then.
ok, here's the biz! I was gonna do this track-thing, but my friends are on it. Not my real friends. The one's on the post above (^^^^UP THER!!!!1!^^^^) but I was like,"....ok, me can handle!" heh heh heh ya no. So I was talking to them until my coach was telling me I didn't have these forms, so I couldn't practice. So I sat there with A, who 4got her physical. She went on about her "boyfriends" and then I tried to connect with that with this one time-but she said jokingly "Oh...no. It's all about me right now!!*slutty giggle*" then she went on and on. I was pissed, knowing she hit a button that no one likes to touch. the "ALL ABOUT ME NOT U" button. So I told her ok, go talk to her then, because I don't give a sh**. She thought I was joking and giggled again. I talked with this nice girl (nicer than her) and we had fun, so it was good. Suddenly, my friends came back. My friend M was sick, so she called me when the coach was talking. I answered, and all of them went berserk. they snatched it out of my hand, and ran to get her. I was in front getting her, and then my coach screamed at my and B. She said only one, and B saaaaidd..."exactly!" I had no clue what was up with that. So embarrased, I walked back to all the coaches. But M came, and they came back, and B was butting in, along with A. I was so mad at them both, I told A one word a few moments later..."F*** you." She looked over and said "Wow Hawk! nice random moment! (LOL)". "......I wasn't joking." She didn't talk to me the rest of the time. But yeah, I am at breaking point with them. I just got an idea, in fact. I'll give them crap, try to act like a B***h. It's hard, even for me, but I'll try and I'll let you know tommorrow! Ai...glad I let that out....Oh yesh, morale. Don't give a f*** to people that use you. GIVE...............THEM....................HELL.....this has been prob the most mad I have been in a while.......*sigh*....peace!

[hawkeye]

Life is... BADASS

Hullo! Ok, about the last post...:
I didn't scream at them. But I am giving A the cold shoulder....ok, I'll just show her real name cause its not like she would go on this website, and little people know where I live....right? Ok her real name is Alex. But not Ice Fox. A different Alex. A possessed, strange..... Anyway! It was a half day of shool so I gave her a cold shoulder. It worked, because she ran over to me (NEVER does) and said, "Oh! U look cute!" Then I say quickly,(cause me no bad person!) "Thanks." I walk past but she keeps talking. She asked why I passed her with looking, and are you ok??, and all that baloney. So she asks me as I talk to a nicer friend, "Oh can you hang out?" I didn't yes of course cause I'm not stupid, so I just did a quick, "IDK" and left her. She was scaring me! She laughed along with me and my nice friend(Krissy) as Krissy said a joke. I was really weirded out. Hour after the half day of shool (SPRING BREAK!...but I feel bad for the person's spring breaking ) and she called. I ignored it, but hour later, another call. Then another one. I was tired of her so I took a nap. Ever since, no word from her. A week later if she asks whats wrong, I'll giver her the heads up. She may have a clue from why I quitted track. But on a happier note...


[glow=red,2,300]HAPPY HUNGER GAMES!!!!!![/glow]


I know there is people like Shades out there that aren't the biggest fans of Hunger Games, but no one has the same opinion or thinks the same! Then we would all be screwed because nothing would be invented...anyheehiihoohum! I couldn't get to the Midnite Premiere, but I went on Saturday with my loving dad!(love you dad ) we had fun! It cannot be described with words! Except BADASS!! wait...why not goodass? Cuz' then we would know it was good an... whatev'. Ill make a strange philosophy l8tr...but it missed some parts...if your scratching your head thinking, WHAT?! check out Storm's list! The movie was all good except for one thing...the battle scenes! They were quick battle scenes! You weren't able to see a punch and a kick before getting dizzy! And another thing is how (yesh, I lied! Call me a person with pants on fire.) you HAD to read the book to understand! my dad was scratching his head, asking me this and that once the movie was over. But it was really GOODASS other than that! *****!(5 stars!) I'm gonna see it again with buddies on wednesday, so I can see it again!...Not much of a morale post, so reread the one before time! Ok soooo................... K Bye. ;D

[hawkeye]

Life is...AUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHH

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I JUST SPENT AN HOUR TYPING A POST AND IT HAD TO BE THE LONGEST POST EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOST IT THANKS TO MY COMPUTER MESSING UP AND KICKING ME OUT OF EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME SHORTEN IT: tommorow my birthday. Friend has same birthday as me, and I was three minutes away from being born on April 7. I'm sick though. Killer ear infection with bad cold. Happens to me alot since I was little. I think I made a list, but I'll shorten that too: sick on first christmas, sick on golden bday, sick on other days i celebrate, (usually cuz of flu. blame flu. virus's looove me.) was sick during this christmas and maybe tommorrow, don't know for sure. I think I did something about trying to make a fairy tale ending, like riding on ice cream sandwiches, stabbing Justin Bieber and vampire d*****ag posters, and painting the sun while my brother was calling me a wack job....lost control...introduced my evil twin....oh! Morale was tacos should be equal! Sorry I couldn't be my usual, I'm just pissed that I lost my long post. send me a pm or cbox or something like that if you have any quesetions, Im typing weird, I sound crazy more than usual...forgot to add () but got lazy. Blame my ear. Not me. But my ear IS me so I guess blame that car driving by. I don't know them. PEACE BE WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hawkeye]

Life is...full of mishaps, and scary things(...mishaps and scary things...not a bad song title!)

Hi! I'm slighty shivering as I'm typing, for a reason, but I'll get to that l8tr! First off, you know how I quit track cause of Alex and my other friends?? Weeeeellll, another thing popped up. Alex doesn't sit with us at lunch (she can't) so its just me, E, M, K, P(other girl...) and two guy friends. And one of their new friends that I used to be best friends with, but now a mortal enemy. She is my opposite. A and Z, day and night, good and evil (not exactly, but the way she can be so mean to everyone...not considering how she brainwashed numerous kids into liking her, with only few escaping her little "trap" of popularity...I could be one of them.) But yeah...opposite. So my guy friend, F, he thought M's bag of goodies was just trash. So he walked over with a few droplets of oj, (NOT OJ SIMPSON...WHO IS THIS GUY?!?!) and kind of threw the droplets in there. Now, M's a time bomb. So she screamed at him and poured her water bottle over the whole dang table. My stuff (some needed for medical reasons) got caught in it and I was PISSED. Once she came back with towels, I screamed...I just....snapped! I was cussing her out, and, since everyone thinks shes a queen bee, they all stopped talking. Nobody went against her. It felt good, clashing her, she deserved it! She screwed with me and the underdogs of our group, and I was done. She defended herself saying she was gonna spill it over his crap, but that didn't mean she had to spill a full bottle water over a giant wooden table! People who look up to her started defending her saying, "oh, I can hardly see the stain!" It's water. Not lemonade. It's clear! There wasn't really a stain since its water, but I still can't let her do that! She cant spill on everyones things and think "PROBLEM SOLVED! " Which leads to the next problem. K is...quiet. I try to be nice to her, but it's hard...I feel bad for her because I know she has some things going on and how some people treat her, it's kind of sad. She doesn't eat her food sometimes for a thing I shouldn't say on the website for privacy reasons, but she can't eat. She really just doesn't get hungry. People think she was starving herself(I did until today) but it's totally different. But M and her friend that ill call "D" eat her food without asking. It's rare for them to eat their own food (they usually say their too lazy or they don't want to use their own money) So today, as they went through her stuff, I pointed it out to P,T(a guy friend), and F. F spoke up and called their bluff. We seconded him, so they couldn't say much. They gave back her food. Suddenly, K perked up. We never defended her that much until today(...which I feel bad about ) But they splotched up their lemonade with her lunchbag. The anger in me grew. As she complained about Farhan, (who she thought left but was really behind her) He looked...distant. But content with what he did. He suddenly looked at everyone's expressions.(...sounds like I'm rp-ing ) K and me were giving him a "good job" smile with a secret thumbs up. P started giggling. M kind of noticed, but tried to ignore it. After lunch, us four came together and showed our views. P wasn't into it as much as me K and F were, but we all knew one thing: the splitting of the table has begun. As we thought this, we made a silent pack to stay (the four of us) together, no matter what happens.

Because of this pack, I got a call from K. She was freaking out. She never called me...ever, so I knew it was serious. This guy called her. Twice, claiming it was her friend. The friend she was talking about didnt really go through..*ahem*....his changes yet, considering my voice HAS to be deeper than his. But this old guy claimed it was her friend. I'm not giviing out the place, but its nearby from where i live...but not enough to make sense. He called and she didn't answer the first time, but second time...she got a creepy dude. She asked for her friend's #, which I didn't have, so I called M for his #(that hashtag means number...just so I don't confuse ppl ) and...it didn't match. She (to a person who DOES know who this person is) will call the cops if it happens again. Scary, now realizing maybe not smart to put in public, but everyone gets one of these guys in their life...I had mine. But he gave up and stopped calling (random # kept coming up...) because I never answered. So yeah, I worried for her, considering ppl have even recalled this # online, so I guess for now, I'll look out for her...mostly at shool because that'd be creepy to follow her home...

MORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!(takes a bow and waits for cheers....nothing) to heck with you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, soooo...safety first! If you don't know em', DON"T ANSWER!!!! Not the twentieth century! You can actually see who is calling you!! Second, don't judge books by their cover...I read a book with an apple and hands carrying it with a flashy name that said "Twilight", ....it sucked:(
I tried next book...bad. Next...worse. And last...it was so big and long about her "thoughts," I couldn't pay attention to a damn word!! . Thats what you get when you mix gothic-acting like girls and creepy pedobear-like vampires!! I warned em'!!!............ok, now that I feel better releasing that bad review of Twilight, I feel better. Better than beating your pillow senseless!!!1!!! ...I srsly lost 5 pillows from beating them...that was just last year 0_0....wheew! I srsly speak my mind...and I type as I go!! oooookeeeee!!!(THAT WASNT SCRIPTED...BUT THIS IS ) Hawk -> (acting bored) k bye. (IKR?!ITS AWESUM!!!)

[Hawkeye! :3]

Life is so awe-oooohhhhh sh*t.

Yup. pressed a wrong button. so lemme do this real quick or it'll haunt me.
I lik music more now. Panic! at the Disco, Katy Perry, Adele, Maroon 5, some Skrillex (ikr! imma weirdo!), Parry Gripp, Nicki Minaj, and much more! Lemme know what you like! Oh and i got chased by a skunk last night. It was...interesting. Sorry I don't feel like doing mah hole post. this one was pretty long. Oh! one more thing. Now that the sites back from its...suspension (?) I'll try to work on my roleplaying and all the other stuff I'm bad at! Morale: THINK BEFORE YOU CLICK A BUTTON!! you'll screw alot of things up with one obsession of pressing buttons. Especially the big red ones. I have one in my room, but I forgot what it does........brb! ta ta 4 now! If i don't do another one of these posts again, that means the button I just pressed means something bad. its making weird noises like "self destruct" and "evacuate"..........................so.................k.......................bi...........for now (??)

[Hawkeye! :3]

Life is friggin rainbows and unicorns...getting burned at the stake

Not my fault the fact that unicorns are burning! Anyway, I'm rly sorry ppl. About the fact that i havent been on a whole lot. I'm also apologizing for this monster of ranting posts i created. I swear, in each one, i get weirder . But rly, i've been busy. Then again, who hasn't? I just started high school (holy shait, LOTS of homework) I got on one of the JV swim teams they have (holy shait, LOTS of swimming) and double the bitchy girls. but the banner moment of the month was this....MY BITCHY EX-BEST FRIEND MOVED AWAY!!!!! *cheers and dances around the room* yes, i feel for her. She had older bros, and they were the ones that screwed up her mind. From what I heard, she did something stupid, and is now thousands of miles away living with her brother, going to boarding school. She was nasty. Honest. She would play best friend for a week when her bffs were pissed at her, then she dropped you like a hat. I knew her since pre-school. FRIGGIN PRE-SCHOOL! and hung out with each other til 4th grade (then throughout the rest of the years, i was kind of forced to be friendly). She showed off more skin than I thought possible, and she had the temper tantrums of an 8-year old. Call me crazy, but you havent met her. So your going to have to deal with my version (sorry ) but unfortunately, SOMEONE had to take her place on the top of the bitch list. Number 1 is a girl I'll call....Betsy (for all i know, she is watching me while i sleep, so i have to be careful for the sake of me and my friends who HATE this girl) Betsy, a girl along with me on JV swim (cause I'm not a slutty cheerleader) kind of friended me. Now, I've known this girl for years. I've seen her make girls cry. I've seen her make fun of the person literally RIGHT BEHIND HER. yep, that bad. She is also related to....(who'd i call her?)....K! my marshmallow! (believe it or not, she still is! she is kind of FORCED to be friends with Betsy. I know, pfft, Hawk, your having your blonde moment. Go rant about squirrels. No! I'm for realzies! see, doing a horrbile move, she told her apparent friend all these secrets. And now, she wants out. But she can't cause betsy will tell all her secrets! She told her some freaky stuff. I mean, the stuff im tellin y'all now, this is nothing in my suckish life! Recently, Betsey gave me a new nickname. It's my name, except with "gay" on the end of it. All because of a girl who has hearing problems, boredom, and meowing. (NO JUDGE) and K, always stands up for me when she calls me that. And cause of this, Betsey is calling K a lesbian. I told her i didnt believe her, and told K about it. She looked like she was gonna rip someone's head off. But this is one of Betsey's cruel deeds. theres more, but i'll talk later about them. Morale: fight back. I know, i already said this one, but i'm serious!! After betsey calling me *name*gay, i gave her a nickname of my own....bitch! i even called her that a bunch of times anyhoo, good luck with your life! and if i dont post her EVER again, that means I went to move to Australia to party with koalas! (change of plans from last post) so........................k bye!

[Hawkeye! :3]

Life is...egad, i dont even know anymore

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Whats up?
Interesting. REALLY?!?! WAT!!!!!!!!!! OMG. Me? Oh, just having a crappy day. Do you really want to know? you don't? THEN WHAT ARE U DOING HERE?! YOU'RE SHUNNED!!!
Let's start this rant with yesterday......I have an insulin pump for my diabetes instead of shots. So the insulin pump is like a calculator, calculates your bloodsugar (amount of sugar, or glucose, in the blood) and calculates the amount of carbs you eat to finalize a suggested amount of insulin to take. But once its finalized, it goes through a plastic tube, into an area that is known as a site. The site is stuck to your body unless you rip it off or someone yanks on your pump and.....you know. But it has a tiny tiny plastic end of the tube to spurt out the insulin taken and into your body. It should be switched every few days so i dont get an infection. Problems can occur like I hit a vein, not allowing alot of insulin to go through (lots of blood, too.) or somehow, it ends upu bent. Well, lucky me, my site that was recently changed last night was screwed up. We didn't know. Throughout the night, I had trouble sleeping. I broke out in sweat, I didnt know I was awake or asleep, and i guzzeld water. Alot. I never thought that all these symptoms can lead to a really high bloodsugar. I woke up at 5:50 am today to swim (my coach couldnt let us practice later this time) and throughout the whole time, I had a crappy stomachache, ready to throw up, and I kept guzzling more water. I asked to go to the locker room, and my coach said yes before I finished. Was something wrong? well, from others, I looked white as a ghost. I'm pretty white enough, it says ALOT. So when i got home, i went to check my bg after eating 2 big egg sammiches, and all it showed was HI. stupid as it sounds, its scary. It's not my glucometer talking to me, it's just that my bloodsugar is so high, my glucometer cant even register it. Freaking out, we used my two emergency insulin shots, then took out my site. It was as bent as it could get. It mustve hit something hard when it went in, like bone or muscle, making it bent as hell. It took me 3-4 hours to bring it down. lol I'm suprised i can type . We guessed it was in the 900-800s, for how long the bg shot down. But yeah, kind of crappy, but im looking forward to homecoming! No, I'm not going with a boyfriend, who'd choose me over a girl on cheer squad that knows just about everything a dumb jock would want. Ew. But I am going with my badass friends! Betsey apparently was told by P that she was going to K's house (along with me, F, and of course K) and know shes romping her ass over. I'm gonna beat that girl . But we'll be there, and forget reservations!! Unless you count her basement with pizza and cookies as a reservation...but other ppl are going to fancy italian resteraunts which i say screw that, so we'll have fun....HOPEFULLY. Morale is I hate people that are mean. sooooooooooooooooo, k.................................................................................................................TEEHEE..............BYE